Under the Weather

Missing in Action

For a while now I’ve been under the weather and unable to focus on much of anything, especially not writing. Couldn’t muster the focus. Couldn’t muster the motivation. Every idea I had seemed stupid. Not worth writing, Not worth anyone’s time to read. I know I’m not the only one who’s ever felt that way. That does not make it any better for me.

A good day would be followed by a not-so-good day. Some miserable nights when I’d have to get up and then not be able to get back to sleep, so I’d get on the internet. Social media. Nights I’d be afraid to be away from my phone, even though I’m not the sort of person to sleep with my phone under my pillow. Lactose intolerance shares symptoms with other, more serious conditions. Add in anxiety and I’d be a real mess. Eventually, I’d feel better, realize I wouldn’t die just yet, and go back to bed. Sometimes I’d be able to get two or three hours more sleep, other times only an hour or so. Every time I thought the sun was going to come out, I’d get another downpour the next day.

It took a while, which was made longer by denial and experimentation, to figure out that I’ve developed lactose intolerance. To figure out what triggers it and what does not. It’s a yucky process. There were times when I thought I’d never be able to eat anything but crackers and white rice without causing my system to rebel.

Even though I now know what the problem’s been, I’m not quite back to so-called normal. I’ve been mean to my tummy and it’s getting its revenge for things such as, coffee, black tea, dark chocolate, salsa by the spoonful (who needs chips?) oranges, hot spicy veggies juice, plus other insults. And that’s not even the dairy products. It seems that everything good is acidic or comes from cows.

Rats! Depressing.

I thin I finally have a handle on it. This time for real, though it’s going to take time to heal completely.

Stay tuned.

I hope this is the light at the end of the tunnel and not just an illusion brought on by wishful thinking.

6 thoughts on “Under the Weather”

  1. I am so thankful you have figured out the problem! The beginning of a solution is knowing what is wrong and needs to be addressed. You are in my thoughts and prayers, friend. May this be a real turning point;

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  2. Oh, I’m so sorry to hear how awful you’ve been feeling. I empathize, and particularly with being so ill it interrupts or prevents sleep. It’s good to know you figured out what’s going on. It does take a while for the body to even out after a period of unintentional “meanness,” as you say. BTW, my sis also has developed lactose intolerance in addition to her GERD issues. I too hope your light at the end of the tunnel is for real. Take good care, Dace!

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    1. Thanks, Judy! I’m sorry to hear your sis also has developed lactose intolerance. I really empathize with her. It’s probably not so bad once you realize what the issue is. But the learning process can be slow and very uncomfortable. My symptoms may be masking other issues, too. I also have problems with acid reflux and probably one other self-inflicted issue. At least the awfulness hasn’t lasted all day.


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